Tantrums!!!

December 30, 2015
1 year 2 months

Tantrums! That's all I have to say about that. Except I also want to say, I can't believe how much more gray hair I have because of them!!! Haha Aaahhhh!!! I'm going crazy! And you don't know how to tell me what you want so I'm even more at a loss. I love you booger. And I hope you know that I'm trying to understand and be patient. I don't mean to be rude to you. I just don't know what to do either. It's a learning process for both of us. I sure do love you. And I'm here for you. This is just a phase.... this is just a phase... this is just a phase....

Xoxo
Mommy

Dance party of 1

December 28, 2015
22 weeks 6 days
114 lbs

Dear little one, I can not believe how much you move! Constantly moving! Non stop moving!! It's unbelievable. You are moving from the moment I wake up until after I'm asleep. And they're big movements. All. Day. I love feeling them. But right now I just wish you would get comfortable and call it a night. It's 1:15am. I love you little dove but please :) for the sake of my sanity please go to bed!

Love,
Mommy

Mi Corazon

Dec 26, 2015

When I dated Aaron I thought I loved him. And then we got married. And I realized I loved him more than I ever thought I could. Until we had Henley. My heart beats to the sound of my boys laughing and playing together. Aaron sings silly songs and Henley laughs. I fall in love with him over and over and more and more with every song he sings and every giggle that comes out of my little dove.

Happy Birthday, Jesus

Dec 25 2015
22 weeks 4 days
114 lbs

Happy Birthday Jesus!! I could go on for days of what I'm thankful for!! We are beyond blessed! Beyond!! Today is the day the Lord was born in a manger. Without this day, we would not be here. Without this day, our souls would be dammed to hell. Without this day we would have no hope. We would have no freedom. We would have no love. Or joy. We would have nothing.
A perfect little baby. Wrapped in cloths. Born in a manger. I am so thankful for Jesus. Happy Birthday my Lord.
One of my all time favorite songs is Mary did you know. (that your baby boy, would one day walk on water?! Mary did you know, that your baby boy, would save our sons and daughters!?) It's such a beautiful song asking Mary, the Mother of the Savior of the world, if she had any idea who she gave birth to. It's remarkable to think. And glorious. And we are so undeserving. Saying happy birthday seems meaningless. We worship you today Lord! Cleanse our hearts. Make us pure oh God. Forgive us of our failures. Lord thank you for your birth. And your death. And your ressurection. Thank you God for sending your son to be born into this world. Amen.

Little one, this Christmas was so special. I'm so thankful for your growth in my heart and in my body. You are already so loved. We look forward to celebrating Christmas with you in our arms next year! Your big brother had a blast this year and can't wait to have someone to share it with!! We love you.

Henley!! We love you more than your imagination my darling. We are so proud of you. And so lucky to have you in our lives. Our hearts are so full watching you explore. Your curiosity is mesmerizing and so adorable. I love that you are beginning to let me hug on and hold you. It's been something I've prayed and hoped for! You're starting to actually WANT me to hold you. It's my favorite thing! I love you sweetheart!! Merry Christmas mi corazon.

Xoxo
Mommy

A Christmas to remember

December 17, 2015
21 weeks 2 days
111 lbs

Hello little one. We are feeling good these days! I'm as happy as a calm being able to run errands and enjoy my days with you and Henley!

Henley you are so silly!! You fell asleep on Emmy's bed so she fell asleep on yours! Haha you Crack me up! I was taking your picture after you woke up from your nap. At first you were ok with it and then in a split second you ripped out your paci and stuck out your tounge Hahahaha you have such a fun personality! Some days are tough for us. And I hope to do my best. But there are days we both drive each other nuts! And there's nothing in this world I would trade those days for sweet boy! No matter what! I'm yours and you're mine and if we have each other we can conquer the world together! I love you with a fierce kind of love. The kind that says I promise to give you my best every single day. The kind that aches when you're asleep because I just want to wrap my arms around you and protect you from every thing in this world. The kind that will never give up on you. The kind that will make promises and keep them! I love you Henley Quaid! And I love your sibling just as much! I can not wait to see you two play together and love on each other and become the best of friends!

To the baby who hears my heart, please know that the hearts that you are entering into are yours forever. Your daddy, myself and your brother will love you unconditionally!! Our home is your home. What we have to offer is love, kindness, patience, goodness, gentleness...these are all things the Lord has grown in us to give to others. Jesus loves you more than I ever could. And I pray right now, in Jesus' name that you will grow to choose Him and love Him. That your footsteps will be blessed by Him. He had a destiny for you before you were ever formed in my womb. He knows the plans He has for you. (Jeremiah 29:11) Hold fast to His word. He will your guide. He will be your Father, healer, protector, friend! He died for you and for us. I love you peaches! I can't wait to hold you!

To my precious doves,

I pray you never forget what this season is all about. The birth of our Lord and Savior. He was a baby born in a Manger. Who lived on this earth for 33 years before being crucified. He died for our sins. But he rose again and is alive and living in our hearts! Please don't long for gifts or presents. Long for Jesus and his love and sacrifice. It's all about Him. It always is. And always will be. I pray in Jesus name. Amen.

Xoxo
Mommy

Groovy baby

Dec 9, 2015
20 weeks 1 day
110 lbs

You are a wiggle machine! On Monday we had a sonogram and got to see your wiggly body! We're all so excited to meet you! We wonder if you will have my features or your daddys! Or if you will look like your brother with blonde hair and blue eyes!! I soo can't wait.
When we saw the sonogram the technician said you are a wiggle worm! She mentioned it a few times! Makes me think you will be a busy body like your brother! Who knows. Or maybe that's you just trying to get closer to me :) I hope you like to cuddle little one. I can't wait to snuggle up to you! The heart rate was 150! Last appt it was 142. The time before that was 160 something. Interesting!

I'm feeling good these days. No more morning sickness! wwooo! Thank you very much. I'm craving different things all of the time. Like all I wanted for 2 days were McD's spicy chicken sandwich. Not healthy but totally worth it! I can't get enough of Sour Straws. That's normal but lately I just NEED them! I'm back to drinking chocolate milk on the regular. I've had a few burgers lately. Not as much chicken or vegetables as I should be. I will do better. I love you! Can't wait to meet you and hold you!

Xoxo
Mommy

P.s. the last pic is of you and Henley. You're on top and he's on bottom.